Let's be real for a second about Instagram and yoga. It is a crazy social media world out there with about a BAZILLION different yoga accounts with about a bazillion pictures of people doing crazy, insane, contortionist shit with their bodies. It is easy to look at all these pictures and think to yourself "Wow, I guess I suck at yoga" or "I will finally be good at yoga when I can do THAT" or "Im going to try to do that even though I have no idea the foundation of that pose or how to get into it". Haha.
I have a love/hate relationship with my own Instagram account. If I'm being completely honest, posting all those pictures of myself online (and now even on this blog and my website) makes me feel super uncomfortable and really vulnerable. I view my Instagram page as a way for me to build my business, invite people to my classes, network with other yogis, and maybe spark someone's interest and encourage more people to give yoga a try. What I really hope it DOES NOT do is turn people off to yoga or make people think that they could never do yoga because there is no way they could ever get their body to do (insert crazy, inaccesible yoga pose here). I truly believe yoga is accessible to EVERYONE, we just have to find the right style that will work best for us wherever we are in our lives at the moment. Offering a Restore class has been one of the best learning experiences for me as a teacher because I've realized how powerful Restorative Yoga can be and ofttimes there is more actual "yoga" being done in a Restore class than in a Power class where people are just muscling their way through their practice and forgetting to breathe and essentially just beating their bodies up in order to burn calories. That AIN'T yoga! It is exercise, but not neccesarrily YOGA.
Anyways, where was I? Oh yeah, Instagram.... Every once in a while I get all weird and uncomfortable and want to delete my Instagram account and never post another yoga picture again because I feel annoying or obnoxious and I start worrying way too much about what other people think of me. I am very much an over-thinker and over-worrier and this is something I'm constantly working on on my mat! At the end of the day, I think my Instagram account has actually been really good for me because it's forced me to put myself out there and not worry about what other people think of me. It's forced me to stop comparing myself to the other yoga accounts out there because that's not me and it's not a competition. It's forced me to find my own authenticity in what can be a really inauthentic world. Bottom line is -- it's scary to put yourself out there, especially when it's something you feel passionate or personal about.
I feel this way about teaching yoga in general. It is constantly challenging me and forcing me to step out of my comfort zone. Almost every class I teach I still feel a little nervous or uneasy at the beginning. I think it's mostly because yoga is something I love so much and I really want people to have a good experience; I want them to get it. However, I've learned that people are going to have their own experience anyways and there's only so much I can do. Some people will love yoga, some people will hate it. Some people will love me as a teacher and some people will never want to come back to my class again. And that's ok. I have to continually remind myself that all I can do is show up as my best self, teach from a place of love, authenticity, and compassion, and let the rest go. When all is said and done, I love what I do and I am continually learning and growing as a teacher. It is a constant practice for me. I am never fully comfortable and that's actually one of the reasons why I love it so much.
If anybody out there has something they are passionate about but afraid to pursue... my advice would be to go for it. DO IT. Just try it. And if you fail, who cares. If there is something that speaks to your heart, take that path and see where it leads. Even if it's scary. Put yourself out there, let yourself be open and vulnerable, maybe even obnoxious and annoying Allow yourself to grow. Let go of what others think and create something beautiful.